Donovan´s English Blog

I got kicked out of the house when I was in middle school. I was thinking in my head I was gon be a rags to riches story. Man this life thing really not sweet bro. I went back home my mom told me that I was wrong. in that moment I realized that I needed a change in my life and I had to find a way to make money. I would really do anything around this time to make some cash. I would rake leaves I would cut bushes, I would be a helper for a plumber, I helped people with carrying groceries and throwing their trash. But this time in my life really made me realize I needed to do something, there was no way I could be lazy at home and do nothing.

 Calm like the Ocean Happy like a dog Im way to blessed to be stuck in a Fog  All honesty, I hate poems. This poem really explains my life right now because I really am doing great. I cant complain about anything and God has really blessed me. I'm thankful for everything Ive got and I know better things are coming. Its been real calm for me and I hope it continues like that, but if it don't, then I just have to push through,

 I work. Whenever Im in a bad mood I just go to work and try to distract myself. On those days I don't work I love to do wood work and to work on my car while I listen to music. I really like listening to Lauryn Hill and Boosie. The wood work I do is Building desks, vanity's, and just furniture is a really fun hobby for myself. I like working on my car and fixing it up myself. Sometimes the YouTube videos confused me and a 1 hour job turns into a whole afternoon those days make my mood worse. 

 I miss being able to play Legos with my cousin. I can still play Legos with him but we're both older now and it ain't the same to how it was. He had a bigger imagination and everything felt a lot more real. I miss the sleep overs I had at his house and the movies we would watch together.

 I wish I could unhear the phone call that took my dad from me

 There's a guy I know at Lakeside, growing up with this guy he acted just like any of us. By us I'ma say Hispanic people, he'd talk Spanish to us he'd eat the same food as us and he had us as friends. I think having a diverse friend group is important. This guy however genuinely just switched up and thought it was embarrassing to be Hispanic in middle school. His favorite artist went from Bad bunny to Taylor swift and he replaced Me and Jose with Connor and Brad. I even noticed he completely changed his accent from ours to theirs. He doesn't even want to claim his culture no more. Just is a little sad that he fit in with another group rather than just befriending them and staying real with himself.

Whenever I'm in the gym and Im hitting abs I always tell myself I can do 3 more reps and I know I can but my body feels tired. And it really is mind over matter but I genuinely cant push through Im not strong enough mentally.

 A couple bad things have happened to me but in my sophomore year a particular thing happened and it really just changed me. Ever since then I feel real happy and social for like 2 hours a day then I feel bad and don't feel like myself and I just don't feel good. It's been going on for a while and ion know what's wrong fr but that's how life goes you get me.

 I love when I'm outside during the summer on those white plastic chairs. When I'm with my brothers and my family and we just talk. Maybe have a one drink or fifteen... of sprite or coke. The music in the background while the music is playing in the background. Those nights really was the best I've ever had. 

I never understood math so I would always find a way to get better at it. It started off by studying, or by asking a girl I thought was fine for help. Eventually it didn't help me in the end. I just was not made for math. One day in the 10th grade my homeboy had told me about something called CHATGPT. I used it one time for homework and relied on it. It felt good because I had a dependable partner who knew how to do math.

 I vividly remember the first time I dealt with a backed up septic tank. The house had been backed up for around 5 months but the land lord was so much he didn't want to deal with it. One day the tenants got sick of it and threatened to call the city. So I ended up getting the job with my uncle. I remember digging for around and hour and uncovered the leach field and also opened up the septic. The leach field wasn't set up properly and the septic tank was overfilled. We hired a company to pump it. Aftter words I dug for around 30 minutes trying to find the 4'' drain pipe that was feeding the septic. After I found it my uncle made me hit it open with a hammer. I told him Id rather use a sawzall but he had a sinister smile and told me to hit it. I broke it open a all that liquid in there exploded out for a second. I got hit a little and he was laughing. I remember being real uncomfortable dealing with septic tanks. However in the end I still did it cause I really will do ...

I asked out a girl and then realized that I had someone that I had to be with everyday. At first it was all nice until it wasn't. I really never had time for anything it was just work hang out, work and hang out. Over the summer I ended up getting real tired of it, and I talked to friends Ive had for years less and less. It was hard to balance it all so I just ended it.

 I remember in 10th grade I was arguing with some people I didn't like. One of them swung on me and I thought I could win the one on one. I ended up getting handled and I got beat up bad🤣.